kool love

this blog is in honour of friends! i have lots, from different walks of life- some i see often, other i see rarely; some live 2 mins. away by car; others live 8 hours away by plane; either way, friends are something not to be taken for granted, but often end up that way!

tonite i appreciate how great my friends are- sending wee encouraging txts, emailing me with random chat, phoning to rescue me from stressing out so much i spontaneously combust, helping me with work when i hit a brick wall, singing along to the radio, the list goes on!!

so thanx my friends, you are all wonderful!!

<-- good times- kool and the gang! yeah!

the lighter way to enjoy chocolate

ugh, today is a total waste! i have faffed around for most of it, and am so unmotivated to get this assignment done. i've done a bit, but it's now like, 4 o'clock and and iv only typed about 400 words. it's so easy to type loads really quickly on here , but when u have to engage ur brain, and ur notes first it takes so much longer. and it's freezing in here- i think the uni people have forgotten it's february and have put the air conditioning on in the library computer room. i'm trying to make my maltesers last the rest of the day but i only have 7 left... this will take planning and self-control.

still, i'm off to the big apple on wednesday so don't have many grounds for complaint!! it doesn't seem quite real yet, but i am planning to do as many 'American' things as possible whilst there! i found a church who are having a college pizza party one night- i wonder if i could persuade chris to go... free food's always a good incentive to a hungry traveller! we're going to try and catch an ice hockey/ basketball game- cheerleaders, i wonder if they'll have real cheerleaders!?!?!? awesome (see, i'm getting in the zone[ thanx britney!]!). managed to finally catch the new OC last nite, i LOVE it! marissa's at a new school, summer discovered a scandal, seth is still a geek, and ryan didn't disappoint and got into a fight!!and now instead of getting uni work done i have sat downloading pictures of maltesers! i have sunk to new depths! boo, back to freezing typing now :(

my swinging faux pas!!!

haha, last nite i was asked what i was thinking when i titled one of my blog posts 'swinging makes me sick', and i was like, well when u swing from one feeling to another it gets u nowhere and makes u feel a bit sick, duh! i was then enlightened that :

" Swinging is a form of recreational social sex between consenting adults, most commonly consisting of male/female couples meeting other male/female couples for sex and/or ongoing intimate friendships."

so for anyone who innocently thinks like me, i am happy to have u share in my new found knowledge and u too can now carry on with a more worldly-wise existence! for anyone who read that and thought i was referring to the above 'swinging', be assured i am not that kind of girl!!!

10 years today!

today chris and i have been going out for 10 YEARS!!! congratulations to us! he did some research and discovered 10 years in anniversary terms is not diamond, or silver, or even nice glass- it is in fact tin and aluminium! so i was given a very nice aluminium photo frame, and in a tin, the new desperate housewives board game! see what he did there- love it! and i got taken out for the nicest ever dinner to the Piersland Hotel, down at Troon!
it's funny to think we'v been together for so long, who ever would'v thought when we were 13 we'd reach this day! and no, no sparkly gracing my hand, we shall have to wait in vain for that one!

but congratulations to Chris and Steph who got engaged on thursday!

Tina Dico

Tonite i discovered tina dico! she's brilliant- why have none of my music guru's alerted me to her before now? or maybe the pupil becomes the master!? regardless, she has a distinctly beautiful and powerful voice- i've been listening to just 3 tracks on repeat all nite and will happily continue! check her out NOW!

another fun day at the office

wow, this is my 30th post! my haven't i been busy!? (or not, hence the reason this is no. 30!). so today was another one of those not too great ones. it began by sleeping in, altho i didnt mind so much as the lectures today were all psychology, which i actually know all about! the lecturer, however, is dire and stretches the day out without having enough to fill it. so today we had a 2 HOUR LUNCH! and then returned for a 30 min debrief- oh dear goodness! i think there's maybe something in the soup, as everyone is raging just now. moaning, bitching, complaining, ranting- they'r all at it (in fact, today 1 guy got so irrate that he yelled at our tutor, [in the middle of class!] slammed his fist on the desk multiple times and kept saying, 'bloody ridiculous'!!!!!) . so i shall seek refuge in the safety of my blog to do a little of the same! seriously, it gets too much at times, so pammy and i escaped to a computer room and deliberated over which beautiful 'as-seen-on-screen' shoes to buy! sadly we saw sense jst before hitting the confirm button, and purchased nothing! shall have to wait til another day to look like the stars, sigh!

after being stung at the dentist for £20 (for a 10 min. tooth clean, grrr) my wonderful brother cooked me dinner tonite (cheers bro, it was excellent!) and we (ok, really he!) decided to make some home-made crisps!! they were ok, a little raw and oily, but not to be sniffed at! put on my cosy white jacket to go out, and all of a sudden it's too small! has my quest for ultimate fitness had horrendous reverse effects? or has someone put it in the tumble dryer...? suspect no. 1 confessed all, but i feel i cannot condemn as it is a godsend to have a mother who still does my ironing!

and now i am having a teeny break from typing my pupil's action plans and records- it's a nitemare, after every careers interview i do i then have to spend at least 1 hour on each person, typing up 2 sets of notes, researching their area of interest, and this week i have 3 to complete! and this friday i have another 3 to do (please take a moment, tear).

so, enough blog indulgence for one nite...

are we just nosey?

tonite at dinner my mum actually choked on her soup when i said 'sex'!!! we were discussing the best way to burn calories, and needless to say, everyone was suitably startled! haha! i wonder if its true...?

i'm listening to radio 1 online jst now, so i could catch 'laura's diary'- does anyone else find it highly addictive!? there's something about hearing/ reading someone else's thoughts which is fascinating- don't deny it, u'r reading this here blog!!! i wonder why we enjoy reading about others so much- maybe since God designed us to relate to one another; maybe since we're just nosey! the only thing about just reading is that it doesn't really allow for proper relationships to develop. it's funny though, cos i feel like i kind of know fellow bloggers, even tho i may have never met them or see them quite sporadically! it's like a sneaky way of keeping in touch with people! so please feel free to introduce urself, who knows, we might even meet one day!

swinging makes me sick!

the river clyde runs thru Glasgow, and the clyde tunnel goes underneath it! today we drove thru the tunnel, and had to use the wipers cos there were so many drips... this concerns me!

panic has been slowly setting in over the past week or so, re: the amount of uni work we have to do. i have been on the pendulum of denial and panic, swinging from one to the other, neither being particularly conducive to getting said work done! this climaxed today in class when i almost had another panic attack, but my tutor soothed us all, and i realised the assignment i thought was enormous and terrifying is not actually, and i hadnt properly understood the task (she hadnt explained it properly though, but lets not blame!!)- major sigh of relief!

it's easy to lose perspective on life and the importance of things which really matter. like friendships, and family, and God. sometimes i get so stressed out and it takes someone or something to stop me short and re-assess my priorities!
even simply taking like, 10 mins to spend with God in a quiet place is so refreshing and really does put everything into perspective!

tonite i was scared... twice!

tonite i went to st silas, which once again was really good- thanx rev mcarthy- but im too tired and cold to expand on anything deeper- maybe tomoro! but afterwards i went to the pub, and at half 9 went to get a bus home. not my most inspired idea- the buses out there are so irregular and there is no timetable. eventually, after freezing for long enough i thought, aha, get the underground! so i walked down by kelvinbridge... and got scared!
it is badly lit, so u cant see if there's anyone hiding under the bridge or under the stairs! i have a wildly active imagination and am not particularly fond of the dark, so made a mad dash across the park, and car park, until i reached the underground. which, (please take note) at half 9 on a sunday nite, is closed. i was very jumpy by this point, and didnt have my panic alarm on me (girls, u should all have one!)( and take it with u!). so then i was like, oh no, i'll have to go all the way back across to wait on the bus. after psyching myself up for a while, i started heading across, only to chicken out/ think sensibly, as the bus sailed by !

my knight in shining armour then said he'd come and collect me (hurrah) so i walked to charing cross (cue second scare...). it was kinda quiet for such a normally busy road, and as i stood at the green man i sensed someone behind me. i turned round, to find a scary looking man hovering a little too closely. i slowed my walk, he passed by, then slowed his walk, to the point where i wanted to stop and tie my velcro shoes!! i was feelin very nervy by this point, but then i thought, no, be brave, smile friendly at him- he's less likely to mug u if ur nice to him!! so, i came level, smiled friendly, and said, 'brrr, it's cold tonite, eh'!? he smiled back, seemed a little less scary, then asked where i was going, what my name was, and told me he was single!!! haha- men!

so that was my kind of scary night- i know its a bit of a boring story really, but im home alone now, and im still feelin jumpy, so i dont really want to go downstairs yet! thanx for reading all the way thru- u will be rewarded for ur patience, i am sure!!
have a lovely, non-scary day!

perspex perspective?

life is short. sometimes we become acutely aware of just how short it is; everything else becomes a little sharper, and our perspective is refreshed on what really matters.
spending time with God does that too. it's all too easy to become completely stressed and focused on a problem or situation which is blown way out of proportion. time spent with God allows him to redefine our thinking, our motivations, our obsessions.

it enables him to give us new strength to cope with situations that are hard to take in, and encourages us to chat to him more, and let him in on all of who we are. i remember someone once saying that he's not going to force his way in and will only fill whatever space we make for him, so it's a conscious effort on our part to not fill our lives with things that won't last. interesting...