we are all onions (go with the layers theme, not the making people cry!)

there is so much hidden in us that we are completely oblivious to and unaware of. things we haven't ever realised affect us; who we are as a person; why we behave in certain ways; the ways we respond and react to different triggers. the way we are so affected by some things and not others. the way we, sometimes vividly, remember a comment made by someone, and the effect that has had on who we are and how we live our lives. or when another person has some insights into who we are, when they see something in us that we thought we had well-hidden, or were even unaware of.

this is all a bit vague but i know what i mean. but then even how much i know is limited to my conscious thought. my subconscious may be directing my thoughts, protecting me with denial or reppression or displacement, and i don't even know it.

i am still reading Captivating, and one of the key topics it focuses on is beauty.
the truth that everyone is made beautiful, as we are made in God's image, and God is the epitomy of beauty and all it holds and represents. it's not a topic i'v ever given much thought to, but as i read something resonated in me and i knew exactly what the author was talking about- the disillusions we have and how they affect us. and it's not something i ever thought i had cause for concern on- in short, it's not something i thought was worth thinking about, not flippantly but in the sense of stopping to think about what i think beauty is and what it truly means.a while ago i wrote a song about being made in God's image, and some of the lyrics were:

He loves you as you are
and he made you in His image
your life's laid bare before His eyes
but He refuses to compromise
because He made you in His image.

the words are simple because it's simple really but i don't think we really get it. because if we did then i think we would all live and think completely differently. in fact, i think if we really 'got' who God is, like really truly believed what we say we believe, our lives would be so radically different.

think of the miracles, of the healings and prophecy, of lives completely transformed- of all God could actually accomplish in us and through us if we truly believed! this will be my goal.